Thursday, January 25, 2018

Review: The Fosters 5x12: #IWasMadeInAmerica

4,085 words
31 minute read



This week's Fosters had more unexpectedly positive moments.  Tara and I are looking forward to digging into the disability representation in this one...


Thursday, January 18, 2018

Review: The Fosters 5x11 "Invisible"

9,161 words
71 minute read

This episode definitely turned out to be pivotal for Jesus, in particular. We are still in a bit of (good) shock about where it ended up. Come with us as we break down this episode. It might be a bit on the longer side (longer than usual) but there is a lot to unpack. Fortunately, we're up to the task.

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

Transcript - Support Group / Jesus and Moms - Fosters

402 words
3 minute read

TBI Survivor [off screen]:  ...like, blow-up with a friend over, like, nothing.  We were playing a board game and I totally lost it.  


Jesus: [to Lena]  This is pointless.  Can we get out of here?

Lena:  Please, just give it a chance.

Survivor:  I tried to explain that it wasn't me.  That I sometimes literally can't control my emotions.  But people - and even my own family, who spent all those days in the hospital with me - they still don't get it.  

Jesus: [Sits back.  What she's saying is hitting him.]

Survivor:  Because I look fine, they think I should be like I used to be.  They don't understand... 

Jesus: [Looks at Lena; hurt]

Survivor: ...because the disability you have is invisible.  

Stef: [Listens.  Takes this in.]

Survivor:  So, they think you're either being defiant, or not trying, or faking it to get off easy.

Jesus: [Listening, getting emotional]

Survivor: They end up talking about you behind your back.  Not sharing stuff with you 'cause they think that you can't handle it.  

Jesus: [listening, but it's getting harder for him]

Survivor:  ...makes you feel even more alone and isolated.

Jesus: [swallows, tries to keep it together]

Survivor:  But I don't want to tell anyone when I don't understand things.  Or when I forget where I parked my car.  Which happens a lot.

Other Survivors: [laugh gently]

Survivor:  Sometimes I just wish I could fade away because it's easier to be alone than to constantly be misunderstood....

Jesus: [close up on Jesus, struggling to keep composure]

Survivor: ...by people I love the most.

Lena: [sees Jesus upset] Honey...

Jesus: [bolts from the chair]

JESUS - OUTSIDE - MOMS COME TO JOIN HIM

Lena:  That's what we're doing to you, isn't it?

Jesus: [nods, forces a smile through tears]  I know you guys don't mean to but...

Stef:  Love, you don't have to say that, okay?  We've been, uh...

Lena: We've been doing this wrong.  And I'm so sorry.  We really thought that we were just helping you.

Jesus:  I know it's just...every time you guys try to help me it makes me feel like I--I CAN'T do it.  Or like I'm bad.  Or broken, or something.

Lena: [tearfully] Honey, you're not broken.  You're not.  And I promise you that we're gonna stop  making you feel that way.  

Jesus: [exhales, relieved]

Stef and Lena: [hug him]

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Thursday, January 11, 2018

Review: The Fosters 5x10 "Sanctuary"

5,029 words
40 minute read

Ahhh, finally the 5B premiere!  Tara and I were cautiously optimistic for this one, and for the most part we were not disappointed.  While there is much that needs to be rectified in the coming episodes, we really noticed a difference with how illness and disability were portrayed.  Read on for more of our thoughts. 


Monday, January 8, 2018

Review: An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon

939 words 
7 minute read



Over the last month or so, I've been reading An Unkindness of Ghosts by Rivers Solomon.  I'd tried to get into it a bit previously but not being a big Sci-Fi reader, I misunderstood that the ship they were on was not a boat, but a spaceship.  (Should have been obvious with it being a Sci-Fi book maybe, but as I said, I don't usually read Sci-Fi.)

If you don't either, don't let this deter you.

This book contains the best disability representation I have ever read in fiction.

In it, we follow Aster (who is Black and autistic-presenting), a 25-year-old low deck resident of Matilda.  Aster is skilled medically and helps other residents of the ship when they become sick or hurt.

Aster learns from Theo, who is both a well-respected surgeon and a religious leader.  (Also notable that Theo is an amputee.)  She is close to Giselle, who is Aster's best friend, who helps her figure out clues Aster's late mother has left beind.  Giselle also has mental illness which is not shied away from - and is, in large part - due to the racist, dehumanizing treatment Black women in particular receive on the ship from the guards, who can do whatever they like.

The most important thing about this text is that it is largely narrated by Aster.  So while we see a lot of outside perceptions, the story itself stays with the protagonist herself.  This way, we do not buy into the faulty belief that Aster is "not all there."

I'm going to attempt to limit this review to only a couple of excerpts / examples of what I love about this text, so that hopefully, you will seek it out and give it a chance for yourself:

From Chapter 1:

"Your model lacks specificity and is therefore useless," she said, speaking more harshly than intended.  This close to the end of the day she lost her ability to modulate her naturally abrupt manner for the comfort of others. 

A couple of things about this excerpt stand out to me.  First, it's a comment on how fatigue can impact disability symptoms.  It's assumed, I've found, that if you have a disability than those symptoms remain consistent all the time, so that a person's disability always looks the same.  Always sounds the same.  The reality is this could not be farther from the truth, and to see this articulated in a book that simultaneously is humanizing and respecting the disabled character?  Well, that's just about unheard of.

The last thing I want to comment on in this excerpt is "for the comfort of others."  So much of what we do and how we live as disabled people is for the comfort of others.  Nondisabled people likely do not think about whether or not they should bring something they need because it might be inconvenient for someone else.  But this is very common for people with disabilities.  (Just the other day, my sis asked if she should bring an accommodation to help her navigate the icy sidewalks or leave it at home.  I said take it.  I told her later, I have the very same back and forth in my head about whether or not to take my wheelchair when I go places.)

"I am going to lift your nightgown for just a moment.  Acceptable?"
Flick lifted the gown themself.

Something else I loved about this book was just how normalized it was to ask (and then wait for) consent.  This is especially poignant as Aster is essentially a medical professional.

First, that communicates that Aster excels in medicine.  She's shown as capable and able to do things that not everyone can.  And while she is still learning, the skills she does have are needed.

Second, Aster asking and waiting for consent of a minor child before doing something so basic as lifting their gown lets the audience know that this child is respected.  While Flick needs a painful medical procedure, they are never left without information, always given answers appropriate for their age and always asked for consent before touching their person or moving any clothing.

As a child, I endured a lot of hospital stays, and was never asked for consent.  This resonated.  I also find myself wondering if Aster is so tuned in to consent because she is Black, and disabled, and female-presenting.  And none of these things are respected onboard Matilda.

From Chapter 14:

People were so often mean that when they weren't, there was a tendency to bestow sainthood upon them.  Aster did not reward common decency with affection.

It's so rare to find a book that accurately comments on the intricacies of what it's like to live disabled, but An Unkindness of Ghosts does it again and again.  This is one of my favorite excerpts in the book, mainly because I have never seen it articulated anywhere before.

I experience this often.  The feeling that if someone is nice - even simply expressing common decency without ableism - I feel so grossly grateful to them.  But I may have to learn from Aster and not reward common decency with affection.  Common decency is expected for human beings and we are human beings.  It isn't "extra" even if it often feels like it is, because "people [are] so often mean."

I'm going to stop there, even though there is so much more I could quote.  Check out this book to read a desperately necessary story featuring intersectional characters, respectfully depicted.

You won't regret it.

It's available here:  Click to buy An Unkindness of Ghosts

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Review: The Fosters 5x04 "Too Fast, Too Furious"

4,220 words
33 minute read

Originally written: August 3, 2017

BRANDON - ANCHOR BEACH, WATER FOUNTAIN

Emma: [Approaches]  Is there a story about Jesus and a baseball bat?  

Brandon:  Uh, why?

Emma:  I saw your door was smashed in.  Did he do that?

Tonia:  I totally forgot Emma actually asked Brandon this!

Tara:  Because, again, we cannot ask Jesus about the things he personally did or experienced.


Thursday, January 4, 2018

Review: Lethal Weapon 2x11 "Funny Money"

283 words
2 minute read

So, truth time?

I don't watch Lethal Weapon.  I didn't even know what it was about.  But when I saw this post by Ali Stroker I knew I needed to check it out.  Super rare to see a disabled characer on TV and even more so to see them portray a bad guy!


Review: The Fosters 5x03 "Contact"

3,553 words
27 minute read

Originally written: July 27, 2017

JESUS AND FAMILY + CALLIE'S BOYFRIEND, AARON - KITCHEN




Aaron:  Thank you for letting me stay for dinner.

Stef:  Thanks for helping, love.

Mariana: [To Jesus]  Unlike some people.

Tonia:  Mariana.  Just because Moms are thanking Aaron for helping doesn’t mean you need to get all unnecessary with Jesus.  Seems like there’s a lot going on in the kitchen, and sometimes, when that’s happening it’s easier (and safer) for us to just stay put.


Monday, January 1, 2018

Review: The Fosters 5x02 "Exterminate Her"

3,645 words
28 minute read

Originally written:  July 20, 2017

JESUS AND EMMA + FAMILY - KITCHEN:




Brandon:  [Slices cake, brings it over to Jesus and Emma.]  Hey.  You guys want cake?

Jesus: [Keeps his back turned, ignoring Brandon]

Emma: [Nods and smiles]  Thanks.

Brandon: [Walks away]

Emma: How long are you gonna stop speaking to your brother?

Jesus:  How long are you gonna stop speaking to Mariana?

Tonia:  Touche...