Monday, December 11, 2017

Review: The Fosters 4x19 "Who Knows"

Originally written: April 5, 2017


Stef: What was this letter doing in your pocket?

Tonia:  Nothing!  You know, Jesus just was telling Brandon what a good brother he was, so Brandon reciprocated and Jesus thought better of frisking him…

Brandon: Emma asked me to take it so no one else would read it.  

Lena:  Who's read it?  Has Jesus read it?

Brandon: No.  Just me and...Grandma.

Stef: Grandma?

Brandon: She read it to Jesus because he couldn't read.

Lena:  Okay, so then Jesus does know about it.  

Brandon:  No, she skipped the part about...

Stef: The abortion.  You can say it.

Lena:  So, how do you know about this?

Brandon:  I...took her to go get it.  

Tonia:  It’s so horrifying that now, Brandon, Grandma, Mariana and Moms all know about Emma’s abortion, but Jesus still does not…

Brandon:  Are you gonna tell her you know?

Stef: I don't know if that's our place.

Lena: Do you know if she's told her parents?

Brandon:  I don't think so.  Are you...gonna tell Jesus?

Lena:  I think--

Stef: I think that's our choice?

Lena:  I think so.

Brandon:  She really wants to tell him.  As soon as he's well enough to handle this.  

 Tonia:  I hate that Jesus is being left out of this discussion, but what else is new?

Lena:  Okay.  Let us just think about this for a while, okay?  And in the meantime, please just keep it to yourself.

Brandon: Okay.

Stef:  Oh, hey love, um...  Thank you very much for taking Emma and being there for her.  That was good of you.  

Lena:  It really was.  

Tonia:  Lest any of us forget - even for a moment - what a Super Brother Brandon is...

Brandon: [leaves]

Lena: We just told Emma and Jesus they could have sex in the house...

Stef:  I can't believe my mother didn't tell us!

Lena: What are we gonna do with these kids?

Tonia:  It doesn't feel so good to be left out on information that you should have, does it, Moms?  And yet still, your inclination is to not tell your son...


Gabe: Oh wow, Jesus.  These are really cool.  

Jesus and Mariana: [smile at each other]

Gabe:  But before we nail down a design we have to find a tree that we're going to build in.  

Mariana:  That's my department.  I'm going to a bunch of daycare centers and public work projects, so what should I look for?

Jesus:  I--I--I would say a h-h-hard...wood tree?  Right?

Gabe: [looks concerned]  Yeah.  Like an oak or a walnut.

Mariana:  Got it.

Tonia:  I appreciate that when Mariana asks what kind of tree they should look for, she asks Jesus, she does not automatically refer to Gabe.  Again, a show of respect and confidence in Jesus's abilities.

Tara:  So, I love that this project is a thing.  But I hate that it is still Jesus’s fake senior project.  I am glad that we can still hear that aphasia impacts Jesus’s speech.  (I also noticed his prism glasses in his hand - not being worn despite one of the moms saying that he would have to wear them for a bit longer.  And while some disabled people do not need or use their glasses/braces/crutches/canes/wheelchairs 24/7, it seems that in this episode, the glasses and cane are nothing but a visual reminder for the audience.  They exist as little more than set dressing.)

Also, we get to see how Gabe interacts with Jesus post-injury for the first time.  And while Jesus stumbling over words seems to make Gabe momentarily uncomfortable, he is able to keep the conversation going and not make it a huge deal.

Ana: [walks out with baby Isabella]  Hi.  I hope I'm not interruping.  We were on our way to daycare and it's near here.  

Gabe: [stands up; looks at the baby, smiling]  So this is Isabella?

Ana:  Mm-hmm.

Mariana: You've never met her?

Gabe:  No.  Uh-uh. [Shakes Isabella's hand]

Ana: Isabella, this is Gabe.  [laughs]

Gabe: She looks like you.

Ana:  You think so?

Gabe: Yeah.

Jesus and Mariana: [Meet each other's eyes.  There's pain there.]

Ana:  Hey, do you wanna hold her?

Gabe: Yeah.  Sure.  

Ana:  There you go.

Jesus and Mariana: [Watch silently as Gabe happily holds Isabella in his arms, as Ana looks on, smiling.]

Gabe: [to Isabella]  Hello.  Hi.

Ana:  Be careful.  She likes beards.

Mariana: [Looks blank and sad]

Gabe and Ana: [laugh]

Mariana:  Um...I should get going if I'm gonna find this tree.

Jesus: [watches Mariana go, concerned]

Tonia:   How heartbreaking, seeing Jesus and Mariana’s reaction to Ana and Gabe with Isabella.  And hearing Ana talk about dropping her off at daycare when the twins know how they were treated by her as babies?  It’s all in their eyes as they look at each other.  Mariana can’t even hang around after that intro.

Ana: [to Mariana] Talk to you later.  [To Gabe]  So, I talked to my brother, and he's starting a big commercial job, and he's willing to give you another chance.

Gabe:  Oh, uh, thanks.  Yeah, I'll call him.

Ana:  Well, I should probably let you boys get back to work.  

Gabe: Goodbye. [Hands Isabella back to Ana]

Ana:  Let me know if you need any help.

Gabe: Okay.

Ana: [To Jesus]  I'm really glad you're feeling better.

Jesus: [smiles]  Thanks.

Ana: [leaves with Isabella]

Gabe: [sits; clears his throat]

Jesus: you tried to get any help from, like, a doctor or something?  Just 'cause Mariana told me that you're depressed.

Gabe:  Yeah, I mean I went and saw someone.  But, you know, they wanted to put me on pills.  They got a lot of side-effects.  I think they screw you up more.

Jesus:  Yeah.  Definitely, I see that.

Tara:  Totally a valid choice, Gabe.  Not ideal for Jesus to hear, though.

Tonia:  Right?  This is so not the moment for Jesus to hear somebody he looks up to talking abot how bad side-effects are and how they make him not want to take anything for a medical condition...


Mariana: [comes in]  Hey.

Jesus:  Hey.

Mariana: Does it ever make you feel bad?  Seeing Ana with Isabella?  How good of a mom she is to her?

Jesus:  No.  I don't think about it.

Tonia:  I’m so glad that Mariana feels like she can talk to Jesus about these feelings, and contrary to what Jesus says here, his face tells a whole different story.  It has since they saw Gabe, Ana and Isabella together…seems like, maybe he can’t think about it, or it will hurt too much.

Mariana:  Do you remember Ana leaving us in our crib when we were babies?  For, like, a whole day or more?

Jesus:  Yeah.  Actually, I had a...I had a dream about that when I was in my coma.  We were in our crib and you were crying...and I was...I was trying to take care of you.

Tonia:  How devastating.  As much as this is so horrible for both of them I am so glad they have each other to talk to about it with.  That they believe each other.  They know what happened because they both remember it.

Mariana:  We were babies.  It wasn't...your job to take care of me.  My therapist thinks that I should confront Ana about it.

Jesus:  What?  What would--  What's the point of that?  She was--  She was a drug addict.  

Mariana:  So that lets her off the hook?

Jesus:  No, Mariana.  But she was also, like, really, really young and she never...should've...had us.

Mariana: that what you would've done?  If you were Gabe, would you tell her to get an abortion?

Jesus:  No.  I would've been a dad.  No matter how young I was, I would've stepped up and I would've had the kid, and I would've taken care of him.  

Tonia:  It struck me last night how Noah’s Jesus really is a completely different character than the first Jesus.  Because in season one, he was all about getting that morning after pill for Lexi.  Maybe that’s because now the writers can portray Jesus the way they always intended to.  I’m not really sure.

But I do really find this statement by Jesus in this scene to fit with the way he is now.  Very tender, quiet, and driven to do what’s right.  Especially after having that conversation with Gabe in season 3 about how Gabe did tell Ana to abort the twins when she was pregnant, and how terribly that sat with Jesus.

Jesus:  But they are not us, okay?  And it does us absolutely no good getting mad at them.  

Tonia:   This is such a twin thing.  Mariana is so upset at Ana abandoning them (as she should be.  They deserved to be taken care of.)  And Jesus is on the other end of the spectrum where it seems he’s trying to put distance between himself and that time because he knows it can’t be changed.

Tara:  Twins do tend to try to balance each other out, I’ve found.


Mariana: [While walking away]  Jesus should be out back.

Emma:  Are we okay?  

Mariana:  What do you mean?

Emma:  You've barely been talking to me.

Mariana: Well, you haven't really been talking to me, have you?

Emma:  Can you stop playing games and just tell me?

Mariana:  Okay, I'm not the one playing games.  Look...I know you had an abortion.  And that you didn't give Jesus a chance to tell you what he really wanted.  Which was to be a dad, by the way.  No matter what.  

Emma:  Well, it really wasn't his choice.  

Mariana:  True.  But we're adopted.  So maybe you could've considered that.

Tonia:  I adored this conversation between Emma and Mariana.  I love the honesty.  How Mariana didn’t hesitate to tell Emma how Jesus felt about it but also acknowledged that it wasn’t his choice.  It also felt really accurate that she would talk about how she and Jesus are adopted and how that’s also a valid option.

Tara:  However, it remains endlessly frustrating that these two are discussing this while Jesus still doesn't know about it.


Jesus: [Picks up a box]

Gabe:  You got it?

Jesus:  Yeah.

Gabe:  You sure you should be lifting stuff?

Jesus:  Yeah, I'm fine.  It's good for me to move around.

Tara:  The thing about brain injuries and disability in general is that you’re always contending with your limitations.  And those limitations can shift and change day to day, depending on any number of things.  With the visual disturbance plotline pretty much gone, it follows that Jesus probably does feel markedly better than he has.    

Gabe: All right.  Well, it won't take long....

Jesus: [Sets the box down; begins to hear a high pitched tone.  Gabe continues talking in it sounds distant and muffled.  Jesus stands still.  Eventually the sounds stop.]

Gabe: Jesus!  Hey!  Are you all right?

Jesus: [Looks around, confused, trying to get his bearings]  Um...  What are--  What are--  What are we--  What are we doing?

Gabe:  Uh...  We're movin' my stuff in.

Jesus:  Why?

Gabe:  Should I call your mom?

Tara:  And this is why it is not advised to go off medication without a doctor’s knowledge and supervision.  Yes, Gabe, please do call Lena.  (Also, notice Jesus’s speech being impacted by not feeling well.)

Jesus:  N-no.  No.  Um...  Um...  No--no.  This--  This--  This happens to me sometimes.  I just--  I forget what I'm--what I'm doing.  [Sits down with a hand to his head, like he is in pain.]

Gabe:  Well, Jesus, are you sure I shouldn't go get your mom?

Jesus:  Yeah, no, don't.  Don't.  I'm--I'm--I'm fine.  I'm fine.  I just--I stopped taking my meds.  Because of the--the side-effects.  Uh, like you were saying.  Just like you were saying.  And...yeah...I can't have--I can't have sex...when I--when I take my meds.  

Gabe:  Well, I mean, maybe that's okay?  For now?  Until you get off of them?

Jesus:  What, in five years?  'Cause they said it's gonna take five years and I don't--I don't--I don't....need...them...I'm...I'm getting...better, okay?  So just, please, don't tell my moms.

Tara:  To recap: Felbamate is a last-resort anti-convulsant with dangerous side effects.  Impotence is not one of said side effects.  Also?  I cannot find any research that supports the arbitrary 5-years-on-anti-convulsants thing.  

Lena:  Hey!  You gettin' settled in?  

Gabe:  Yeah.  Yeah, I think so.

Lena:  You guys hungry?  Do you want some lunch?

Gabe:  Oh, I'm--I'm fine.  Thank you.  I don't wanna impose more than I am.

Lena:  No.  Lunch is not an imposition.

Gabe: Thanks, but I'll grab somethin' later.  And I just wanted to thank you again for letting me stay here.  Honestly.  Um, I won't be here long.

Jesus:  What?  No, man, you can stay as long as you want.

Lena: [Forces a smile]  So, Jesus, it's time for you to take your pills.

Jesus:  Okay.

Tonia:  Of course, Jesus would want Gabe to stay as long as he wants.  (And I'm hoping Gabe tails Lena inside and tells her that Jesus isn't actually taking his pills.  So dangerous.)


Brandon:  Have you told Emma you know?

Mariana:  Where's Jesus?

Brandon:  Downstairs.

Tonia:  Because, God forbid you inform Jesus of something that Emma actually informed him of already...

Mariana:  I didn't tell her that you told me.

Brandon:  Well, she's not stupid and she's really upset.  So, what did you say to her?  

Mariana: All I said was that she never thought of what Jesus would've wanted to do.  Maybe he would've wanted to keep the baby.

Brandon:  You think Jesus is capable of being a father?

Tonia:  Oh, do not even go here, Brandon!  Disabled people are capable of being parents.  Don't push this trope that we can't be...

Mariana:  I don't know.

Brandon:  That's right, Mariana!  You don't know!  You have no idea what it's like taking care of a kid!

Mariana:  Oh, I'm sorry!  I forgot that you were a step-dad for, like, five minutes!

Brandon: After everything that Ana put you and Jesus through...

Mariana:  At least she didn't get rid of us!

Tonia:  God, twist the knife a little more, Brandon!  You can’t bring up how badly Mariana and Jesus were neglected as babies as justification for Emma’s abortion.  How do you think that makes Mariana feel?  Oh right, you’re not thinking of her feelings…

Brandon:  So, why are you making Emma feel worse for something that was really hard for her to do?  Because this is exactly why she didn't tell you, Mariana.  Because you can't keep secrets.  You're a crappy friend!

Tonia:  And you're a crappy brother.

Jesus:  What's going on?

Brandon: Nothing [leaves]

Jesus:  Did I hear something about Emma?

Mariana:  What?  No.  He's just...mad because...I didn't fill up the car when I used it last.

Lena:  Jesus, can I talk to you for a sec?

Jesus:  Yeah.


My therapist says I'm making good progress, but I'm still scared.  Tired of not feeling normal.

Tonia:  I wish someone was there to tell Mariana that healing does not happen all at once.  That it's gradual, and that it's okay to be scared.  That being scared is normal after what she went through.


Jesus:  What's up? 

Lena:  So, when did you stop taking your anti-seizure meds?

Tara:  I’m frustrated that this conversation is off-page.

Tonia:  You and I both.  Such a significant conversation and we are not privy to it.  When we get what is likely pages and pages of dialogue where Jesus's family discusses things that directly concern him without his knowledge or presence, but scenes like this are cut short.

I can't even like the fact that Lena takes Jesus to his room for the conversation because any sembelence of privacy is gone due to the fact that she does not close the door.  So any siblings in the hall might easily overhear this.


[Close up on Jesus's mouth as he drinks water, swallows, and Lena starts to cue him]

Lena:  Mouth open.  Tongue up.  

Jesus: [complies]

Lena: [tips his chin a bit to scope out his mouth; nods slightly when she is satisfied]

Tonia: I am really horrified by the way Lena physically handles Jesus here.  It could be that I'm really sensitive even watching any kind of invasive touch around the face or mouth, but this does feel unnecessarily dominating and/or controlling.  Instead of asking Jesus to incline his head a certain way, she just takes inititative and does it herself.  It feels really awful to watch, like I am witnessing a mother objectifying and dehumanizing her disabled kid.

[Camera pans out and we see that Brandon's in the kitchen with Jesus and Lena, eating breakfast and looking on]

Tonia:  Then to know that this whole thing has unfolded - not in private - but with Brandon sitting right there watching?  Let's add unnecessarily humiliating to that list of 'unnecessaries' I have going...

Jesus: [defeated]  How long are you gonna make me do this?

Lena: Until I can trust that you'll take them.  So, probably forever.

Tara:   Okay, so apparently the off-page conversation did not go so well.  While I understand the importance of taking the medication until a doctor’s appointment can be scheduled, forcing your kid to take it “forever” despite the (fake) side effects?  Not okay.  Understandable if there are no other options, but it appears that Lena is not interested in looking into those options.

And I can’t help but entertain the thought that perhaps in Lena’s mind, the impotence might be a blessing in disguise - a way of controlling Jesus?  Which is such a gross thought, but the truth is that many disabled people undergo forced sterilization as a matter of convenience even today.  Is keeping Jesus on Felbamate despite his objections due to a convenient “side effect” so different?

Gabe: [arrives, coming through the kitchen door]

Lena:  Hey, Gabe.  [To Jesus]  So I'm gonna run an errand.  I'll be back in about an hour.  [Pats Jesus's shoulder; leaves]

Tonia:'re leaving Jesus with...eighteen-year-old Super Brother, Brandon?  Who just witnessed his humiliation?  Sounds like a great idea....

Jesus: [Pulls his bowl of cereal closer.  Hunches over it.  Upset.  Eats a spoonful of cereal.  His hand tremor is evident here.]

Tonia:  I notice a couple of things in the above moment:

1) Jesus seems very protective of his food here.  One arm is completely around the bowl and he's hunched low over it.  While it might be an adaptation to minimize spilling, I also saw it as rare evidence of his and Mariana's food insecurity.  Being that vulnerable around a parent might trigger that same early fear.  He did just talk to Mariana about the dream he had about them being left alone in their crib with no food for a day or more as babies.  It would make sense that, perhaps even just subconciously, he'd want to make darn sure he had access to food right now.  Even though the combination of a pill like that and his upset might kill his appetite, this does not seem to be a factor and I wonder if - in this moment - having access to food supersedes any potential stomach upset.

2) We have another instance where Jesus is using his affected hand to eat with. For reference: instinct is if one hand is injured or otherwise out of commission (even if it is your dominant hand) you'd automatically use your less dominiant (unaffected) one.  This seems to be another instance of either a lack of knowledge or insight or a moment with plenty of insight where the writers, director, etc made the choice to intentionally portray Jesus as tragic and / or helpless here.

Gabe: Hey, Brandon.

Brandon: Do you want me to--?

Gabe:  No, it's fine.

Tonia:  That seems to be the sentiment in general, regarding Jesus.  He doesn't deserve privacy.  So even if the siblings ask (as Brandon did and was right to do), the adults in Jesus's world do not treat him as though he is worthy of a private conversation.

Jesus: [To Gabe, but with his head down, quietly]  I should have known I couldn't trust you.

Gabe:  That's not true.  But I couldn't let you hurt yourself.  

Jesus: [Looks at Gabe.  Hurt.  Betrayed.]

Gabe: I mean, your brain's not right.  You forgot what we were doin'.  You coulda had another seizure.

Jesus:  What, my brain's not right?  What about your brain?  You're so depressed that you got evicted!  Maybe you should take your meds!

Tara:  Oh my.  I know this seems most unfair, Jesus.  And it is.

Tonia:  Jesus is very quiet until Gabe starts in with the casual ableism.  Given that Jesus is already feeling so down I'm sure having his bio dad say "your brain's not right" when he's been one of a few people who has treated Jesus with respect thus far does feel like salt in a wound.

Gabe:  I wanna be here for you, Jesus.

Jesus:  No, you don't.  You almost left town without telling us.  The only reason you're here right now is so that you have a place to live.  

Tonia:   Ouch, but Jesus speaks the truth.

Gabe:  I had a job in Tahoe--

Jesus:  [With tears in his eyes]  Well then maybe you should go!  I'm sure it's still available!

Gabe: We'll talk about this later.  [Leaves]

Tara:  I have to say, as far as adults go, Gabe is actually doing okayish avoiding the whole ableism thing so far.  Just the fact that he does not dismiss Jesus’s anger as a “TBI outburst,” and lets him know that they will talk later is huge in light of how the family has been treating him in past episodes.

Jesus:  [Ducks his head.  Trying hard to keep it together.  It's not working]

Brandon:  You know, he did the right thing, telling Mama.

Jesus: Don't need a lecture.

Brandon: I know you're going through a tough time with this TBI--

Jesus: I can't have sex...on my medication.  I can't do anything on it.  [Crying]  I don't wanna live like this.

Brandon: [Gets up and comes around the table to sit with Jesus]  Hey.  Don't say that.  Okay?  You're gonna get better.

Tara:  There definitely is such an adjustment to life with a brain injury - and depression is often a part of that.  And while I appreciate that Brandon is trying to make Jesus feel better, telling him that he will “get better” is harmful in the long run.  While Jesus will definitely make improvements, he will not return to who he was pre-injury.  The promise of this is false hope.  (I mean, this is TV, so a “miraculous recovery” might still happen.  But in real life?  Please avoid the phrase.  “You’re going to improve, but I respect your limitations.” holds the same sentiment.  And it’s okay to be different post-injury.  Life happens.  We evolve.)

Brandon: And sex isn't everything.

Jesus:  That's easy for you to say.  

Brandon:  Okay, but you can talk to your doctor.  Right?  He can put you on something else, or give you something.

Jesus:  Like what?  Like Viagra?  Like I'm an old man, or something?!

Brandon:  I don't know.  I don't know.  But I'm pretty sure you're not the first patient to have this kind of problem.

Tara:   Why is Brandon, of all people, having this conversation with Jesus?  This is a conversation Lena should have had with him when she found out he was not taking his medication.

Tonia:  Absolutely.  Instead of insisting she would be humiliating him by forcing him to take his pill and check his mouth afterward "forever."

Jesus:  And what about Emma?

Brandon: She'll understand.

Jesus:  I'm pretty sure everybody knows that, like, she's not with me for my mind.  You know, our thing, it's physical.  You know?  It's--

Brandon:  Jesus, there is nothing wrong with your mind.  Okay, you have a TBI, but you're funny, smart, and a really good guy.  She has to love you for all of that.

Tara:  Brandon, you and I have a love-hate relationship.  And lets be real, it’s mostly hate.  But this?  This was the perfect thing to say.  “There is nothing wrong with your mind.  You have a TBI.”  Please get this engraved on a plaque and place it in the kitchen for all to see.

Brandon:  And, you know, you could always just take care of her...  You know?  Maybe learn a few things?

Jesus:  What?  Like what?

Brandon:  I'm...not...  Just...ask her.

Jesus: [nods]  Are you sure I'm gonna get better?

Brandon: I'm sure.  [hugs Jesus]

Tara:  :/


Mariana:  [to her therapist]  I thought about what you said about getting my power back and talking to Ana about things that I've kept inside.  So...

Therapist:  And Ana, how do you feel?

Ana:  I just wanna help Mariana feel better.

[Ana and Mariana smile at each other]

Therapist: Well, coming here with her today is a meaningful gesture.  

Ana:  Of course.

Therapist:  So, Mariana.

Mariana:  Do you remember leaving us...alone in our crib when we were babies?  

Ana:  What do you mean?

Mariana:  Well, I remember you leaving us for a long time, like, longer than a day.

Ana:  I never did that.

Mariana:  Jesus remembers, too.

Ana: Well, I don't know how you could remember something like that when you were babies.  

Mariana: We remember because we were scared...and hungry...and our diapers were full...  We were covered in our own--

Tonia:  One of my favorite scenes in the episode is this one with Mariana and Ana in therapy.  I was just thinking how much I hoped we would see some kind of through-line with this.  I’ve  been wondering how Mari’s coping with her PTSD.

The tweets in Mariana’s secret Twitter account were revealing in that sense because we get to see that she’s still scared.  She’s still dealing with things, and obviously she’s been trying to process this memory of her and Jesus as babies for several weeks.

I like that this kind of thing was included because it is fairly common from what I’ve read that kids who’ve known severe abuse or neglect do have memories from the time they’re babies of their experiences of those things.  And they’re doubly difficult to process because as babies, Jesus and Mariana were preverbal.  They didn’t have the vocabulary to articulate how they were feeling.  Which is why it’s so good that Mariana’s able to start working it through now, and figuring out how it did make her feel.

Ana:  Okay.  Look. I did a lot of things.  I never left you like that.

Therapist:  Is it possible, Ana, that you don't remember?  If you were using drugs?

Ana:  Look, I didn't come here to be judged, or ambushed by memories that she dreamt up.  I came here because I thought that Mariana needed my help, not to make up horrible things about me.  No, I am sorry.  I'm not gonna do this.  [Leaves]

Tonia:  I also really loved the realism in Ana’s reaction.  It feels so viscerally true that she, as a mom, and especially with a baby now, to be super defensive and dismissive of the idea that she did neglect Mariana and Jesus so thoroughly.  And it is complicated by the fact that she was using at the time so she very well might have zero memories of things she did and/or times that she left them alone.

I feel so much for Mariana, though, and I do hope that her therapist helps her process what happened in the office, so that she can start to realize Ana’s reaction is about Ana and it doesn’t make Mariana and Jesus’s memories of what happened any less valid.


Jesus: So, you know, it might be, like, a while until I can--

Emma:  That's okay.  I don't care about that.  I mean, I do.  But that's not all I care about.  

[They both laugh; start making out]

Jesus: Well, you know, we can still do stuff.  You know, for you?

Emma:  Hell yeah.

Tara:  I’m glad Jesus and Emma are still working on their relationship and trying to figure things out.  (Check out the cane standing next to his bed.)

[They go back to making out]

Emma: [Stops suddenly]  Oh my God.  Did you hear about Anchor Beach?  

Jesus:  No.

Emma: [Takes out her phone]  There's a rumor they're turning into a private school.  

[Close up of Emma's phone screen which shows the tweet from Mariana's secret Twitter]

Tweet reads:  Rumor has it ABCC is going private if u can't afford 30K/year better start looking 4 a new school

Jesus:  Where did you hear that from?

Emma:  Frannie sent me a screen shot from some anonymous Twitter account.  Does your Mom know about this?

Jesus: [Gets his own phone; looks up @nosecretsanymor]

Emma:  We might not be able to graduate from ABCC.

Jesus: [Knows instantly this is Mariana's Twitter.  Scrolls through it.  Sees tweets about her going to therapy, about Jude being bullied, and then...]

Tweet reads:  Talk abt secrets.  Found out my BFF doesn't trust me - she was pregnant & never told me! Could have been there 4 her.  Guess I'm not HER BFF.

Jesus:  [is stunned]

Emma: Did she say anything?

Jesus:  Who?

Emma:  Your mom.  Does she know?

Jesus: [turns back to his phone again, still reeling]

Tara:  I have a hard time believing that Emma would not check out the anonymous Twitter before sharing it with Jesus.  The very first thing Jesus did was check out the handle and the tweets.  And now, he knows.  Finally.  Oh crap.

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  1. The adoption and abortion themes in this were interesting. "You're brain's not right" OUCH. If I ever said that to my brain injured friends I think they would have literally killed me.

    1. Yes, I thought so, too re: adoption and abortion themes. And YES. Such a hurtful thing to say!